oh, horrors.

So, I’m totally stressed here. I’m still at work and I have to be here for another hour going over things with 2 people who really need me to tell them what to do (at least in this instance), and I feel like if I had just started studying one week earlier I would have been fine, and I feel like I”ll never figure out how to calculate the total % reduction in volatile solids as a municipal waste water stream passes through a clarifier, and then an aerator, and I feel very taken advantage of, except it’s my own fault that I’m still here working, because I didn’t say no.

All in all, I am so sick and tired of being here working when I have a Very Important Test to take day after tomorrow. All my week long zen moments where I thought of this test as being a PSAT type of thing and at least it would be a good practice experience – no, that’s not the real me talking. That’s me trying to trick the real me, who is screaming you canNOT fail you canNOT take this over again you canNOT go through this stress of working full time and having a life and having personal relationships and trying to study all at the same time.

So, I really really really really really hope I pass. I really hope I can get out of here by 7. I really hope I can go home, get a good nights sleep, and wake up at 6AM or 7AM and study like crazy. I’ve got a doctors appt. at 2:30 and I really don’t want to work hard after that. But I have so much left to do, so freakin’ much.